Wednesday, December 23, 2015

30 Days of MEsty - a cleansing of the mind

The last year and a half, I've had a lot of fun. A lot. I've met some great people; some that will always mean a lot to me. Some, not so much, but I learned a lesson from them in some way, so it's all good. Some weren't around long enough to fall into either of those categories.

I went out a lot. I drank a lot (I don't think I could begin to count how many nights I drank my dinner.) But I also vegged in my bedroom. A lot. Hiding from the world and everything that it included. I binged on Netflix. I've referred to Netflix as "my one true soul mate" for Pete's sake. And, of course, social media. 

I used all of these things as a distraction to not fully deal with the grief that I was feeling.

My "30 Days of MEsty" is a jump start to ending the using things as a distraction; to get myself on a different path now. I don't need "distractions" any longer, but after a while of doing the same things over and over again they develop into go-to habits.

In January, I'm cutting out Facebook and all other social media, Netflix/TV, alcohol, and dating. For thirty days; a cleansing of the mind.

The one I presume I will have the most difficulty with is the Netflix! But, maybe I will prove myself wrong and one of the other things will be more difficult.

I will let you know - blogging is not something I am cutting out. 

Seeing that I am a human being, I'm sure I will slip on something. So, don't give me TOO much shit if you happen to see me like something on Facebook.

But, as my friends that know me well are very aware of, "Misty Mouth" is not afraid to speak up and out. If I slip up, you will be the first to know.

Update: 1/27/16
I stayed off of Facebook and social media for about two weeks. With no going out and socialization and whatever, I felt like I just needed at least a peek into the outside world when I was at home winding down before bed a bit. Facebook is really the only way I can keep up with my family and friends in Indiana, and I felt really deprived and secluded from them. And then I thought, well, I'm making these rules up as I go. And I can do what I want, so. It was still the kick start that I needed to stop spending 'so' much time on Facebook and other sites, though. When I wasn't on for two weeks, I actually removed all of the apps off of my phone. I have them all back now and can keep up with my peeps at home in the heartland and the new baby in the family, etc. I went through and unfollowed most of the pages that I was following on Facebook, so now i can do a quick scroll through and just see what I want to see from my actual friends and family and don't have to sit and sift through a crap load of posts to see the important ones.

Not looking for any company other than my good friends sometimes. I have to laugh when someone tells me well you'll find that special someone eventually. Well, I'm not LOOKING. I'm not trying to "find" anyone. Some don't understand that. I'm completely content right now just being single and just being me and re-discovering myself and who I am without anyone else's input on the subject. And just from these almost-30 days, I've realized I'm probably going to want to do this a lot longer than I was thinking I would. I've realized I have only just BEGUN to brush the surface And I look forward to more time, with me.

I'm off of my Netflix binges now. I still have it, but I now have a digital TV box in my room, so just a little regular local TV sometimes and no "multiple season marathons" anymore.

I've been reading a lot and doing different projects around my apartment and trying to cook new and different things and Spending more time outside with the dog. And of course I hang out and talk with my boys when they are home.

Oh! and blogging here. :P   I haven't actually blogged as much as I thought I would, though. There have been a few longer posts that I posted, and did end up changing back to a draft status and unpublished for whatever reason. So, there has actually been more than what is showing now. I may go back and re-define those and re-post. I don't know. I can do what I want. So, I will. And I do.

Popcorn and chocolate with a side of wine,